wasted.

It's only the 2nd day of CNY and I'm back to hostel 'coz there are a lot of classes today BUT .. in the end 2 classes got cancelled. So .. it's kinda like I came back to uni for nothing =S

WASTED!

After MIB I went to Vincent's place for open house and we got FREE lunch! So it's all good for my tummy =) Gamble for a bit .. lose -___- Bad bad bad luck laaaa!! Don't even know if I should continue with the gambling or not .. HMM ~

Anyways .. I finally meet up with Wendy and Maggie at night =D

And now, I MUST stop liaoo ~ Gotta do CO 1105 assignment and revise for MA 1102.


SIGHS.





Why oh why .. ?

Happy Chinese 牛 Year!

I just had a gin tonic made by my uncle and man, I am soooo red right now! =D I'll blog right now before I shower and head out for some pretty fireworks.

Well, I'm pretty much prepared for Chinese New Year .. as in clothes and stuffs but not emotionally =)) I know, I sound emo right? I didn't know I look so down lately until T mentioned it in my cbox =S I seriously didn't know it's that obvious .. I thought I kept it well.

Guys,

I'm sorry for my low mood lately ..

'coz I am going through some stuffs and still is ..

Hopefully I'll be better in time.

Thanks for caring peeps =')
♥

According to lunar calendar, today is the last day and tomorrow is the first day of New Year and I hope that this New Year will bring me better luck in everything I do and the same to all of you =)

And oh oh, I must say thanks to Dr. Charles .. 'coz he noticed my hair colour is different! HAHA! Finally, someone noticed my 'new' beauty. HEHE. Thank you Dr. C!

Rick showed me this website ..
click here if you're interested to see the pictures of flood in BSB.

Yesterday I went to Batu Marang's mangrove forest and I had fun =D Esp. catching the lil crab for Dr. Marshall, resulting in my muddy hand. We've found lotsa invertebrates & .. well, that's mostly what we did with him as his field is more into those lil creatures ..

Pics are with Billah and I haven't upload the pics from the handycam into Aly so .. yea. Maybe next time =P

I wonder when's the next field work/bio trip .. =D

Before I end,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

Enjoy and get lotsa angpao-s for yourself ;)





Afterall,
you're a heartbreaker.

my latest ♥

I know I know ..I'm soooo sorry for not updating properly. It's been a mess since uni re-opens! Plus there are some other stuffs going on so I'm a bit lazy tired to blog at night =P

Did I tell you guys that I've ordered a new laptop? =D

And I got it last week and it's such a sweetheart ♥ She doesn't have any name at the moment 'coz I'm too busy to think 'bout it!


She even has this cool sidebar(?) for volume and playing music!


Ahhhh!!


I've fallen heels over head for her !

Okay .. Imma call her .. Aly. HEHE.

life is so short ..

.. to be true.

When someone that you know is gone,
it feels so unreal.
VERY unreal.

It's like they have this illusion on us,
that they'll never be gone.
And will always remain at the same place,
like how we always think they are.

After months or years,
when you see them again,
they seem older than how they used to look like.

Or probably you forget how you used to be with them all the time,
and one day when you hear anything 'bout them,
it sounds so not true at all ..


It's like a big practical joke from God.

凌老师,

希望您在世界的另一邊，
再也不痛苦，
也不会累。。

您安息吧！

And now I feel so bad that ..
I didn't visit my primary school teacher who's always in RIPAS,
when I thought she's in KB Hospital.

=((

暧昧

So girl saw this boy across the cafeteria and thought "He looks cool. I wonder who is he."

It may be fate but somehow they get to know each other after a few days,
or probably weeks.
It went well at first.
Getting to know each other; know each other friends; going out together ..

2 months later, things are getting outta hand.

Girl doesn't know what is he thinking .. & is confused.

"Maybe he sees me just a friend."
"Or maybe we're just a teeny bit more than friends."
"Is he thinking of me?"

Cold wars in between but it usually resume back to normal ..
until the very last cold war.

Boy wants to remain as friends and nothing more.
Boy fades away from her life quickly ..
but not from her heart.

Boy seems okay ..
"I rather you meet someone who deserves you :)"

Girl said she'll be fine.
But is she?


All she has are memories, that painfully sting her heart.



"I miss you .. =( "

Ai mei - Ranie Yang (devil beside you) - rainie yang

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景
到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还想你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里

保护色

保护色.mp3 -

保护色 - 苏亦承

想对你说的
让他先说了
从此只能猜测
你流泪是因为快乐
想要给你的
他先给你了
从此只能负荷
寂寞和爱本来能分隔
祝福你是我的保护色
专心扮演朋友的角色
在你们拥抱的那一刻
我心一分为二
欺骗你是我的保护色
甘心做个爱情的弱者
真爱不是就能逃得远远的
等待是我职责
路越走越曲折
不能回头了
能伤害我的
都是我爱的
还保护什么
还保护什么
祝福你是我的保护色
专心扮演朋友的角色
在你们拥抱的那一刻
我心一分为二
欺骗你是我的保护色
甘心做个爱情的弱者
真爱不是就能逃得远远的
等待是我职责
爱你是天责

Lyrics searched from this website =)

phew ~ !

I'm pretty sure you all will notice the change of my layout ;) 

I've always want to change it .. but never got the time to sit down and experiment with it. I still want to change my layout though .. I want to make borders around the post, like this: 


And also three columns! Grrr ~ I guess I need to find out more on that. I even download that layout's code =P It's all from Blogskins =) You guys can find lotsa layouts over there. Hehe!I've changed the colour of the titles and links & I wanna make a banner! But I doubt that I could do it as I'm still very sucky with Photoshop. 
At first I want to try to make my layout with Dreamweaver but ~ it's gonna take hell lotsa time! 

Let's see how it goes .. wish me luck in doing my own skin!

And also my supplementary papers  -________-"

7 things.

Afterall, the sun was out for the whole day! =D

Soooo happy that I can actually feel some heat! Hehe. I've been surfing around Youtube whenever I'm in my room and I found lotsa Mandarin songs that are nice! I'll post them up one by one ;)

My French supplementary was okay I guess? No idea man. Imma drop it anyways. I'm so sorry Mr. Samuel =S

After my test, me, Mel, Siaw Huei & Chao Yee went to Gadong to pick up my new shoes and YES, I got new shoes again! XD Seriously, buying stuffs make me happy and .. I guess I gotta earn lotsa green after I graduate

Then to Kiulap to shop for food & junk food and lastly to Giant to get my Glade stuff & also bought a 'Little Black Dress' book. My room smells uber nice now =D I bet you all wanna take a sniff of my room! HEHE.

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we've shared

It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you

[Chorus:]
The 7 things I hate about you (oh you)
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks
And when you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and silent
As I wait for you to say
But what I need to hear now
Is your sincere apology
And when you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it, I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh I'm not coming back
You're taking 7 steps here

[Chorus]

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention
The 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
And when we kiss, I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hand in mine
When we're intertwined everything's alright
I want to be
With the one I know
And the 7th thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you
You do (oh)


Lyrics from here.


There's even a parody of this song. Check it out! =D



Damn funny la! XD

Time to dreamland ;)





I'm still waiting for my turn.

那首歌.

The first thing that came to my mind when I open my eyes this morning is .. SUNLIGHT!

It's been raining for days and it made me really emo(when I'm alone) =/ Last night when I was chatting with Laopo, we're talking about weather.

YES WE DID.

We're hoping that there'll be some sunlight the next day ..

AND IT DID! ... for a while though. But better than none right? =)

I miss sunlight =(

Imma show you guys this fave song of mine .. by my fave singer ♥ The winner of the 1st season of One Million Star =D

I would go crazy whenever this MV is showing on TV!! x)

林宥嘉 - 那首歌
(lin you jia - na shou ge)


不知道为了什么　忧愁它围绕著我
bu zhi dao wei le se me　you chou ta wei rao zhe wo
我每天都在祈祷　快赶走爱的寂寞
wo mei tian dou zai qi dao　kuai gan zou ai de ji mo

你要我听这一首歌　用这首歌离 开 我
ni yao wo ting zhe yi shou ge　yong zhe shou ge li kai wo
她唱得太美了　歌词却很伤人
ta chang de tai mei le　ge ci que hen shang ren
你为什么不直接提 分手
ni wei shen me bu zhi jie ti fen shou

爱人的话不需要重　轻轻的说我就懂
ai ren de hua bu xu yao zhong　qing qing de shuo wo jiu dong
接你的车来了　表示爱到站了
jie ni de che lai le　biao shi ai dao zhan le
我站在十字路口　对抗心痛　一个人
wo zhan zai shi zi lu kou　dui kang xin tong　yi ge ren

你的黑发　现在睡进谁的胸口
ni de hei fa　xian zai shui jin shui de xiong kou
你的唇　现在跟谁要温柔
ni de chun　xian zai gen shui yao wen rou
一开始你爱我　最后你放弃我
yi kai shi ni ai wo　zui hou ni fang qi wo
还要用千言万语说得委屈　你有多难过
hai yao yong qian yan wan yu shuo de wei qu　ni you duo nan guo

爱牢牢抓紧我　恨深深包围我
ai lao lao zhua jing wo　hen shen shen bao wei wo
你要我为你好　快赶走爱的寂寞
ni yao wo wei ni hao　kuai gan zou ai de ji mo


All from here but I edited a bit.


To someone .. this is the song that I mentioned =)





Just say it.

you know i miss you.

Timetable is almost done, left an one hour slot for LC then it's done!

Tomorrow after MA 1102, I'll be having my French test =( Macam mana aaa ~ !? Then on Sat I'll be having both MA papers then it's over. Boleh pray for me?

Today is the day that I wore my baju kurung to uni 'coz I have MIB. Since my timetable for MIB is all set .. you people from UBD can always see me in baju kurung on Tuesday -__-"

And the comments I got from wearing baju kurung are ..

"Wow! You look so suci today!"

"Eh sehh ~ macam virgin aa ~ "

"You look very different today."

HMMM ~ I think it's because I usually wear jeans and tee and converse all the time that people are stuck with that very dead image of mine. LOLS!

Well ~ I did wear baju kurung last semester but just .. 2 times I think? Or 3?

Anyways ~ Laopo made me realise that I can use Skype to online AND YES I AM USING IT NOW!! HAHAHAHA!

I love Skype but I miss MSN la! =(

Before I leave,

Billah, thanks for listening ♥

Don't leave me hanging ..

girls are like m&m's.

Sent my relatives to airport and a bit bu se de them go .. wanna hang out more with the boys baaa!

And I'm missing Zhi Lih now =(((((

Don't even know if I can see her this Sunday 'coz them all are going to KL tomorrow. Boohoo.

Cleaned my hostel room and it's .. dirty. Mel's room got small ants, S.Huei got lizard's poop and I got both of it and dust. WTH! But everything's fine now. So it's alright.

So yes, the first day of Semester 2 is okay. First lecture class for Bio for an hour and fell asleep in Math class. Pretty cool me!

I'm so gonna get Billah's tee!! So cali laaaa ~ some others have it too =D HEHE.

Last week or 2 weeks ago my bro showed me this particular video .. DAMN FUNNY okay!

Watch!

I've watched another video of Kevjumba, 'I Love My Dad'. His dad is some funny shit!

For more, click here.

I'm using the old lappie at the moment and MSN sucks a big time. I couldn't log in =( Dammit.

Anyways, I have this funny incident that happened in Kiulap HuaHo, it happened on Saturday. PeiFen and the Jonas Sisters know .. including Fiq, Mel, S.Huei, Nonnie and family. REALLY FUNNY! It's very, very unexpected.

I'll tell you guys soon .. ;)

Yes, I'm trying to make you guys to come back for more. HAHA!

Nights!





Don't tell me I ran out of time.

cookie jar.

I moved my stuffs back to hostel around 5plus BUT I didn't get to place it propery and clean my room 'coz Dadee was rushing me to go. Dammit. I can only clean it tomorrow morning/afternoon =( I don't like that at allll ~

Abah, clean freak can??

Got back from BSB and went to The Mall with relatives and walked around and I did some shopping .. not clothes mmkay! Just stuffs that I need in hostel. Fuhhh!

Okie, a song for us all before uni re-opens =D

I loike this song a lot so enjoy! And I hope you guys know what it means ;)

KINKYYY!

Cookie Jar - Gym Class Heroes ft. The Dream

Cookie Jar - Gym Class Heroes ft. The Dream

Gym Class Heroes
[Dream]
Radio Killer (killer)
[Travis]
Hah! You know what it is.... Gym Class Heroes and Dream
It's hard to look innocent when I got cookie crumbs all over my face... Ya hear me?

[Chorus (Dream):]
I like girls, they like me
They look so good in their seven jeans
Want you to be the one and my only
I wanna be faithful but I can't keep my hands out the cookie jar
My hands, my hands, my ha oh hands
Can't keep my hands (oh), my hands (oh), my ha oh hands (oh)
Can't keep my hands (oh), my hands (oh), my ha oh hands (oh)
Can't keep my hands (oh), my hands (oh)
My hands out the cookie jar

[Verse 1]
You see I got this problem I need help trying to solve it
Because meeting after meeting and I'm still a cookie-holic
You can hide 'Em I'm gonna find 'Em on the counter in the closet
And I'll say I ain't do it with my face covered in chocolate
My girl keeps setting boobie traps
To catch me eating scooby snacks
I left crumbs in the bed once but I told her I was through with that
She still don't be believing me but then guess that I'm cool with that
But I gotta sweet tooth
That will never come loose
And the truth of the matter is

[Chorus]

[Verse 2]
I gotta thing for Milano, Biscotti, Italiano
And I never turn down some Oreo's if you got those
Butter Pecan, Puerto Ricans, or them Oatmeal Raisin Asians, Hazelnut Brazilians, Macedamia
Caucasians
Double stuff or thin mint
It don't matter you getting it
Cause I gotta sweet tooth
That will never come loose
And the fact of the matter is

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
I'm a monster for these cookies
I'm a beast for they treats
An animal for they cracker
Head to feet they so damn sweet
Can't keep my hands, my hands, my ha uh
My, can't keep my hands, my hands out the cookie jar
I know you had it (I'll always be)
I tried my best (always be)
I went to Cookie Anonymous (always, I'll always, I'll always be a freak)
I guess I'm a failure (I'll always be, I'll always be)
I can't seem to keep my damn hands out the cookie jar but it is what it is
(I'll always be a freak)


Lyrics from here.





Is it that hard ... ?

distractions.

WTH did I not get my SMS for my result? Grrr ~ !

I can't log into the website to check result and it's pretty random of me to rush to UBD right now to check my results. BUT, I do know that I didn't have any F  .. and not to forget 3 supplementary papers  -___-  Fine.


You know sometimes horoscope reading could be so scarily accurate & made you believe it, but somehow it's just a lie that you want to believe? Dammit. 

I woke up pretty early today, around 9plus in the morning and I can't continue to sleep. I have no choice but to get up.

Dinner again with family but PSB this time. It wasn't as crazy as the previous dinner at Excapade, we ordered like some maniacs. Pictures soon ;) 

Oh oh oh! I definitely cannot forget to say this, Zhi Lih lovessss me! LOL. Well, at least she plays with me and let me hug her whenever I want to and allows me to carry her and the most successful one .. GIVE HER SHOWER! 

Okay, it's a big deal for me okay. She's a lil angel! Well, quite a devil at times but NO CARE.

I'm still using the PC downstairs so please bear with the boring-ness of my blog. Thank you!

I shall sleep now .. Miri tomorrow =D 

"Nites tites. Sweet dreams."





So lie to me once again.

hot n cold.

At the moment, I'm home and relaxing my dear mind and having a nice tin of 100plus.

And I just realised that I didn't drink my milk for quite a while ..  Usually online and KO straight away after I got back home from outside.

Lately I've been really busy, went to BSB for 4 consecutive days .. or nights. For the first 3 days I'm the one who drove and man, EFFING TIRING okay! I went there to get a new lappie and it's on its way to me soon =D Please come to Mama fast! 

My relatives from Aussie are all here and the lil boys are so big right now =D Pretty cute too ;)
Anyways, my mood has been up and down lately. More to down actually .. ROAR!

Something get those thoughts outta my head pleaseeee!Anyways, I'm really into Katy Perry's songs right now. Niceee ~
I want her hair =D Lols.

Hot n Cold - Katy Perry

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah you, PMS
Like a bitch
I would know

And you always think
Always speak
Cryptically

I should know
That you're no good for me

[CHORUS]
Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
(you) You don't really want to stay, no
(but you) But you don't really want to go-o
You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

We used to be
Just like twins
So in sync
The same energy
Now's a dead battery
Used to laugh bout nothing
Now your plain boring

I should know that
You're not gonna change

[CHORUS]

Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love bi-polar
Stuck on a roller coaster
Can't get off this ride

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes

[CHORUS]


Lyrics from here.

I'm not that smart actually.

me is lazy.

I know I've been REALLY lazy to blog .. and I'm kinda like still stuck in 2008.

And today few hours later school re-opens, that's for Primary and Secondary though =D And I mau balik CCMS yamcha!


Kawanssss, mahu balik CCMS for breakfast? ;)


Anyways .. I saw this survey from Metis' blog and I can't help but to copy it down .. just to make my post looks longer.



Survey 2008

lost a friend?
- Nope.

stayed single the whole year?
- Nope.

had your heart broken?
- Yeapss ~

had a stalker?
- Yea ~

done something you’ve regretted?
- Definitely, but I can't change what happened, right?

lost someone?
- Hmm .. I guess yes.

cut class?
- HEHE.

were involved in something you’ll never forget?
- Yesss.

visited a different country?
- Yes =D

cooked a gross meal?
- Nope! 'Coz I don't cook =D

lost something important to you?
- Nahhh ~

got a gift you adore?
- I don't adore it 'coz I never expect that I'll receive such gift. Thanks anyways!

tripped over a coffee table?
- Nope.

dyed your hair?
- Ahh yes ~

came close to losing your life?
- What 'bout I'm about to be insane? --"

went to a party?
- YES.

read a great book?
- YES!

saw one of your favourite bands/artists live?
- Nope =(

saw someone famous in person?
- What kind of 'famous'?


2008: Your Love Life

Did you break up with anyone?
- Yes I did.

Were you broken up with?
- You don't really have to know ;)

Did you get anything for Valentine’s day?
- Roses & chocolates.

Did you meet anyone special?
- Yes =)

Did you fall in love?
- It's not L-O-V-E laa ..


2008: Friends and Enemies

Did you meet any new friends this year?
- Yes I did, from UBD =D

Did you dislike anyone?
- Ahh ~ it's not like everyone's gonna get along =p

Did you make any new enemies?
- Oh no no no ~

Did you resolve any fights?
- Nope.

Who are your closest friends?
- Still them! =]

Did you grow apart from anyone?
- Yeaa ..

Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
- What about disappointments?


2008: Your BIRTHDAY!

Did you have a cake?
- Make that 'cakes'.

Did you have a party?
- Yea.

Did you get any presents?
- Yes =D

If so what was the best thing you gots
- ALL! =)


2008: All about YOU

Did you change at all this year?
- Other than gaining some fats and not height .. I guess my hair did grow a bit and .. I've learned a lot =)

Did you get your hair cut?
- Yea ~

Did you change your style?
- Kinda, but not a lot.

Were you in school?
- Uni.

Did you get good grades?
- Urm .. a B in Math for my A-level is a big achievement to me.

Did you have a job?
- Some part-time jobs ..

Did you drive?
- All the time.

Did you own a car?
- It's my mum's car anyways ..

Did anyone close to you give birth?
- Nope.

Did you move at all?
- Duh! Of course I move! What? Do I look like a statue to you??

Did you go on any vacations?
- KL and KK.

Would you change anything about yourself now?
- Yea .. stop being a lazy bum: Study & move that assssss!


2008: 2009

Was 2008 a good year?
- There was a period of bad time but overall it's okay ~

Do you think 2009 will top 2008
- I hope so! =D

I confess that in 2008 I…
( ) stayed single for the whole year
( ) made out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
( ) celebrated Halloween
( ) kissed in the rain
(x) had your heart broken
(x) broke someone else’s heart
(x) had a stalker
( ) mooned someone
( )went over the minutes on your cell phone
( ) had a good relationship with someone

Hello 2oo9!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!

I was suppose to blog yesterday before I head down to Miri but things don't go as you plan so you gotta make changes ;) So yes, I blog sekarang!

How's your New Year Eve people? I hope you all had fun =D

I enjoyed mine very much 'coz I miss the music and the alcohol and the 'highhh ~' feeling =D














Maybe I should say ..

FUCK OFF 2008,

HELLO 2009!

That's what the DJ said alright ~ I'm just being a copy cat.

I was VERY RED. Good blood circulation as I always say. I don't have any hangover but had a headache after we all went back to hotel.

Before we left Balcony .. I went to toilet puke. Not straight away though, I sat on the toilet seat (on the cover!) until I REALLY wanna puke. Hey, did this all by myself. I didn't trouble anyone, COOL ME!

I remember I was in the toilet so long that a girl was saying so loud outside that why the girl inside the toilet (me) is taking such a long time!

I'm sorry whoever you are.

And I even met Willy when we're outside of Balcony =D Wonder if he's back or not ~

Back at hotel, showered and laughed at a friend who was SO DRUNK and waited for food then went to sleep.

That's pretty much of my NYE.

Imma do a review of 2008 tomorrow or maybe later at night if I'm not too tired.

All the best to you all in 2oo9 and make sure you don't have any regrets!