FTS.

Nothing is ever fair.

R.I.P WPL

Steph called me this afternoon and somehow I had a feeling that it's not gonna be one of her random happy calls ..

And yes, it wasn't.

She told me that a friend of ours passed away yesterday noon/afternoon. 

We visited her last week and her sister told us that her situation was stable and all they need to do is wait for her to wake up from her coma. Last weekend, me and Steph decided to visit her again someday this week and this news came ..

Good Lord. She's so young. 

But, I really really think that she's in a much better place right now. No more pain, no more medication.

Dear friend, you rest well now and .. I hope you're happier now .. and free from all the pains that you went through.

R.I.P WPL

didn't i?

Everywhere I go
It's rainin' now
I close my eyes
And I can feel it fallin' down
And now I'm faced with the reality
There's no escaping from the pain of you and me

Baby, let it go,
Take it slow
Ohwoah
Let it go,
Take it slow,
Let it flow, let it flow

Give your soul
I gave it all
And I meant every word I said
I thought we could fly
Said we would try
I said I'd be with you for life
And I promised I'd never make you cry,
Didn't I?

Don't make me justify your every move
Don't want to have to question everything you do
Don't play the victim cause the blames on you
I just need time to deal with what you put me through
Oooh

Let it go
Take it slow
Ohwoahh
Let it go
Take it slow
Let it flow, let it flow

Give your soul
I gave it all
And I meant every word I said
I thought we could fly
Said we would try
I said I'd be with you for life
And I promised I'd never make you cry,
Didn't I?

Couldn't breathe,
Couldn't eat
Do you know I cried myself to sleep
Looked to the sky
Didn't know why
Cause all I gave you was all of my love
Didn't I........

Give your soul
I gave it all
And I meant every word I said
I thought we could fly (thought we could fly)
Said we would try (said we'd try)
I said I'd be with you for life
And I promised I'd never make you cry,
Give your soul
I give it all
And I meant every word I said (every word I said)
Thought we could fly
Said we would try (I said we'd try)
I said I'd be with you for life
And I promised I'd never make you cry,
Didn't I?









I still miss you ..

If only ..

.....
I
could
make
you
stay
with
me
.....

I'm getting sick of this.

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This too shall pass.

it is what it is.

I look up the sky and wonder ..
Where did I go wrong?
What did I do?

Somehow I wished, you could tell me.
Or I could just gather up the guts to ask ..
But it's too heart breaking for me to ask.

So I guess, it is what it is.









i was only looking for a shortcut home
but it's complicated
so complicated
somewhere in this city is a road i know
where we could make it
but maybe there's no making it now

too long we've been denying
now we're both tired of trying
we hit a wall and we can't get over it
nothing to relive
it's water under the bridge
you said it, i get it
i guess it is what it is

i was only trying to bury the pain
but i made you cry and i can't stop the crying
was only trying to save me
but i lost you again
now there's only lying
wish i could say it's only me

too long we've been denying
now we're both tired of trying
we hit a wall and we can't get over it
nothing to relive
it's water under the bridge
you said it, i get it
i guess it is what it i

here it comes ready or not
we both found out it's not how we thought
that it would be, how it would be
if the time could turn us around
what once was lost may be found
for you and me, for you and me

too long we've been denying
now we're both tired of trying
we hit a wall and we can't get over it
nothing to relive
it's water under the bridge
you said it, i get it
i guess it is what it is

i was only looking for a shortcut home
but it's complicated
so complicated

一秒也好

我關上了門　最後一次聽你說我們
熟悉變陌生　把我往記憶裡扔
我應該習慣　你離去的眼神　才能讓失去你　變得更完整

窗外的街燈　還在努力掩飾著早晨
我的嘆息成全了　整夜的苦悶
我該努力　習慣這樣的氣氛　才發現失去了　愛不用再等

我知道　我的一切你已不想要　繼續在乎只會讓你想逃
我不相信這全是種煎熬　原來離去是那麼難預料
找依靠卻沒有我想要的好　我的等待換不到你擁抱
只好讓回憶　短暫的炫耀　原來任性對彼此都　不好

清晨的街燈　翻開了城市中的心悶
我的等待成全了　整夜的苦悶

我努力在　你的回憶裡狂奔　才了解失去了　愛不用再等

＊我知道　我的一切你已不想要　繼續在乎只會讓你想逃
我不相信這全是種煎熬　原來愛你是那麼難預料
找依靠卻沒有我想要的好　我的等待換不到你擁抱
只好讓回憶　短暫的炫耀　原來任性對彼此都　不好

多想再一次　緊緊的擁抱　就算給我　一秒也好
一秒可以給多少　我都想要

Repeat ＊

讓回憶繼續　反覆炫耀　原來失去對彼此都　不好









你想逃吗?

i don't wanna miss a thing.

I'm so gonna miss my baby .. ='(

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing











"im already missing u.."

abandoned?

I

wonder

.

the last day on earth.

Suprisingly, Jun intro-ed me this song ..

Look down the ground below is crumbling
Look up the stars are all exploding

It's the last day on earth
In my dreams
It's the end of the world
And you've come back to me
In my dreams

Between the dust and the debris
There's a light surrounding you and me

It's the last day on earth
In my dreams
It's the end of the world
And you've come back to me
In my dreams

And you hold me closer than I can ever remember being held.
I'm not afraid to sleep now, if we can stay like this until

It's the last day on earth
In my dreams
It's the end of the world
And you've come back to me

In my head I replay our conversations
Over and over til they feel like hallucinations
You know me? I love to lose my mind
And every time anybody speaks your name I still feel the same
I ache, I ache, I ache inside.









"You broke my heart."

-- Jenny, The L Word Season 5.

i miss you so much .....

Right before Danny's flight ..

Pictures from Yen Chuan.

I still cry(but not a lot now) whenever I think back of the times when he's still here.

I still need a tad bit more time to get used to it ...

There'll never be another you ..

21 guns.

Sorry for not updating lately 'coz I've been staying in BSB like I'm already living here. I only went home for a day and two and offffff I'm back to BSB again ..

Every night I'm out with Danny and friends till late and that is why I don't update that much. I even abandon my Barn Buddy, Happy Farm and RC. I'm pretty sure after he left I'll be updating more .. it's not something I'm happy about though (>.<)

Time flies really fast, yes?

Sighs ..

One of my latest faves, from Laopo.





Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away and you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside,you're in ruins

One, 21 Guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 Guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I ...

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass and the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last, you're in ruins

One, 21 Guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 Guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I ...

Did you try to live on your own?
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand to close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone
When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died,you're in ruins

One, 21 Guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 Guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I ...

"And I miss you, like the deserts miss the rain .."

- Sade.

untitled.

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..... sighs ...