I'm getting sick of this.

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This too shall pass.

一秒也好

我關上了門　最後一次聽你說我們
熟悉變陌生　把我往記憶裡扔
我應該習慣　你離去的眼神　才能讓失去你　變得更完整

窗外的街燈　還在努力掩飾著早晨
我的嘆息成全了　整夜的苦悶
我該努力　習慣這樣的氣氛　才發現失去了　愛不用再等

我知道　我的一切你已不想要　繼續在乎只會讓你想逃
我不相信這全是種煎熬　原來離去是那麼難預料
找依靠卻沒有我想要的好　我的等待換不到你擁抱
只好讓回憶　短暫的炫耀　原來任性對彼此都　不好

清晨的街燈　翻開了城市中的心悶
我的等待成全了　整夜的苦悶

我努力在　你的回憶裡狂奔　才了解失去了　愛不用再等

＊我知道　我的一切你已不想要　繼續在乎只會讓你想逃
我不相信這全是種煎熬　原來愛你是那麼難預料
找依靠卻沒有我想要的好　我的等待換不到你擁抱
只好讓回憶　短暫的炫耀　原來任性對彼此都　不好

多想再一次　緊緊的擁抱　就算給我　一秒也好
一秒可以給多少　我都想要

Repeat ＊

讓回憶繼續　反覆炫耀　原來失去對彼此都　不好









你想逃吗?

Happy Chinese 牛 Year!

I just had a gin tonic made by my uncle and man, I am soooo red right now! =D I'll blog right now before I shower and head out for some pretty fireworks.

Well, I'm pretty much prepared for Chinese New Year .. as in clothes and stuffs but not emotionally =)) I know, I sound emo right? I didn't know I look so down lately until T mentioned it in my cbox =S I seriously didn't know it's that obvious .. I thought I kept it well.

Guys,

I'm sorry for my low mood lately ..

'coz I am going through some stuffs and still is ..

Hopefully I'll be better in time.

Thanks for caring peeps =')
♥

According to lunar calendar, today is the last day and tomorrow is the first day of New Year and I hope that this New Year will bring me better luck in everything I do and the same to all of you =)

And oh oh, I must say thanks to Dr. Charles .. 'coz he noticed my hair colour is different! HAHA! Finally, someone noticed my 'new' beauty. HEHE. Thank you Dr. C!

Rick showed me this website ..
click here if you're interested to see the pictures of flood in BSB.

Yesterday I went to Batu Marang's mangrove forest and I had fun =D Esp. catching the lil crab for Dr. Marshall, resulting in my muddy hand. We've found lotsa invertebrates & .. well, that's mostly what we did with him as his field is more into those lil creatures ..

Pics are with Billah and I haven't upload the pics from the handycam into Aly so .. yea. Maybe next time =P

I wonder when's the next field work/bio trip .. =D

Before I end,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

Enjoy and get lotsa angpao-s for yourself ;)





Afterall,
you're a heartbreaker.

life is so short ..

.. to be true.

When someone that you know is gone,
it feels so unreal.
VERY unreal.

It's like they have this illusion on us,
that they'll never be gone.
And will always remain at the same place,
like how we always think they are.

After months or years,
when you see them again,
they seem older than how they used to look like.

Or probably you forget how you used to be with them all the time,
and one day when you hear anything 'bout them,
it sounds so not true at all ..


It's like a big practical joke from God.

凌老师,

希望您在世界的另一邊，
再也不痛苦，
也不会累。。

您安息吧！

And now I feel so bad that ..
I didn't visit my primary school teacher who's always in RIPAS,
when I thought she's in KB Hospital.

=((

保护色

保护色.mp3 -

保护色 - 苏亦承

想对你说的
让他先说了
从此只能猜测
你流泪是因为快乐
想要给你的
他先给你了
从此只能负荷
寂寞和爱本来能分隔
祝福你是我的保护色
专心扮演朋友的角色
在你们拥抱的那一刻
我心一分为二
欺骗你是我的保护色
甘心做个爱情的弱者
真爱不是就能逃得远远的
等待是我职责
路越走越曲折
不能回头了
能伤害我的
都是我爱的
还保护什么
还保护什么
祝福你是我的保护色
专心扮演朋友的角色
在你们拥抱的那一刻
我心一分为二
欺骗你是我的保护色
甘心做个爱情的弱者
真爱不是就能逃得远远的
等待是我职责
爱你是天责

Lyrics searched from this website =)

那首歌.

The first thing that came to my mind when I open my eyes this morning is .. SUNLIGHT!

It's been raining for days and it made me really emo(when I'm alone) =/ Last night when I was chatting with Laopo, we're talking about weather.

YES WE DID.

We're hoping that there'll be some sunlight the next day ..

AND IT DID! ... for a while though. But better than none right? =)

I miss sunlight =(

Imma show you guys this fave song of mine .. by my fave singer ♥ The winner of the 1st season of One Million Star =D

I would go crazy whenever this MV is showing on TV!! x)

林宥嘉 - 那首歌
(lin you jia - na shou ge)


不知道为了什么　忧愁它围绕著我
bu zhi dao wei le se me　you chou ta wei rao zhe wo
我每天都在祈祷　快赶走爱的寂寞
wo mei tian dou zai qi dao　kuai gan zou ai de ji mo

你要我听这一首歌　用这首歌离 开 我
ni yao wo ting zhe yi shou ge　yong zhe shou ge li kai wo
她唱得太美了　歌词却很伤人
ta chang de tai mei le　ge ci que hen shang ren
你为什么不直接提 分手
ni wei shen me bu zhi jie ti fen shou

爱人的话不需要重　轻轻的说我就懂
ai ren de hua bu xu yao zhong　qing qing de shuo wo jiu dong
接你的车来了　表示爱到站了
jie ni de che lai le　biao shi ai dao zhan le
我站在十字路口　对抗心痛　一个人
wo zhan zai shi zi lu kou　dui kang xin tong　yi ge ren

你的黑发　现在睡进谁的胸口
ni de hei fa　xian zai shui jin shui de xiong kou
你的唇　现在跟谁要温柔
ni de chun　xian zai gen shui yao wen rou
一开始你爱我　最后你放弃我
yi kai shi ni ai wo　zui hou ni fang qi wo
还要用千言万语说得委屈　你有多难过
hai yao yong qian yan wan yu shuo de wei qu　ni you duo nan guo

爱牢牢抓紧我　恨深深包围我
ai lao lao zhua jing wo　hen shen shen bao wei wo
你要我为你好　快赶走爱的寂寞
ni yao wo wei ni hao　kuai gan zou ai de ji mo


All from here but I edited a bit.


To someone .. this is the song that I mentioned =)





Just say it.

emo .. NOT! or maybe yes?

I'm not gonna put much words today .. or maybe just a bit? Okay, never mind 'bout me. Lols.

Anyways, I'm gonna blog 2 songs by Rihanna .. one old, one new. To me, it's kinda connected. First, the girl was 'Unfaithful' .. then, she asks the boyfriend to 'Take A Bow'. LOL!



Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
Uh
Anymore (anymore)

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer (a murderer)

No no no no

Yeah yeah yeah





Oh, How about a round of applause, Yeah
A standing ovation
Oooooo, Yeah
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You’re so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out

[Chorus]
Don’t tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now (But it’s over now)
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone)
You better hurry up
Before the sprinklers come on (come on)
Talkin’ bout'
Girl, I love you, you’re the one
This just looks like a re-run
Please, what else is on (on)

[Chorus]
And don't tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now (But it’s over now)
Go on and take a bow

[Bridge]
Oh, And the award for
The best liar goes to you (goes to you)
For making me believe (that you)
That you could be faithful to me
Let's hear your speech, Oh

How about a round of applause
A standing ovation

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
Now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now (But it’s over now)
Go on and take a bow
But it’s over now


Been wanting to post 'Take A Bow' for quite a while but didn't manage too .. very 'feel' for me =)

I couldn't say much anymore .. BUT, I wanna post some quotes .. or maybe a short paragragh, or macam poem punya. Lols. All from my love =)

"The hottest love has the coldest end."

"You broke me, you broke my heart,
you broke everything!
You turned my world upside down and inside out,
BUT I know it was worth it for
that one moment of love we had,
it's a shame it went bad.."

"Relationships are like glass.
Sometimes it's better to leave them broken
than try to hurt yourself putting it back together."

"Someone can walk into your life,
and it is not until after they walk out,
that you realize that they were even there."

"A relationship is like a train.
If one passes,
then the next one will come.
I'm sure and if you get off the train,
you'll realize that everything is the same."

Ji emo yi sia ~ =P

I'M OKAY ALRIGHT? =)


And I edited this one myself .. original one is my love's shoutout.

"Should I smile because you're my lover,
or should I cry because I'm not your only one?"

Probably read it somewhere .. not sure =P This is just .. how I feel .. =]

Alright, emo time over! Dreamd land now ..