if i were a boy.

Okay ~ sorry about my previous post .. IT'S WRONG! I kena 'xian ka' by my own dashboard ==" 2 of the posts are drafts so yea ~ miscalculation PLUS I didn't check before posting. ARGH!

Anyways, the next post will baru be the 100th post ^^

I watched this music video from MTV(if I'm not mistaken) at the female hostel's canteen when me and Mel had our breakfast on Tuesday =) Totally love the song and downloaded it, wanna post both music video and the song but my server is so sucky that I couldn't upload the song to my imeem =(

Anyways, enjoy the video and hope you'll understand the video with the help of the lyrics. 'Coz I didn't understand it when I first watched the video.

Intimacy
Honesty
Commitment
You
Me
Us

[Verse]
If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.

[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed


[Verse]
If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)


[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

[Vamp1]
It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

[Male]
You know when you act like that
I don't think you realize how it makes me look
or feel

[Beyonce]
Act like what
Why are you so jealous
It's not like i'm sleeping with the guy

[Male]
What

[Beyonce]
What

[Male]
I said yo
Why are you so jealous
It aint like I'm sleepin with the girl

[Vamp2]
But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah you don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you’re just a boy

Lyrics from here.





I've waited for too long ..
& so, I left.

100th post!

Guess what?


IT'S MY 100TH POST!


*jumps in excitement*

Are you NOT happy for me?! You should be XP


Okay, sorry 'bout that. I'm just being all silly because I can't wait to go home in a few hours more =D I'm soooo thankful for the convocation thingy that's going on =D

Imma watch E!, MTV and Channel V till my contacts crack and till my eyes POP out and I'll sleep till like there's no tomorrow and slack like I have no future at all and hang out till the dawn comes and till sunset comes and over and over again ..


LIKE AS IF!


I gotta revise my MA1101 'coz there's a test on this coming Saturday, and also revise my French .. wth, there's a test on Next Saturday and oral on Week 14 ==" What's more? OH YEA, my English presentation next Monday. WTH. I better list it all down on my calendar first!

*scribble scribble*


OMFG, look at the time!!


I so gotta pack .. and out to Mall for a while with Mel and S.Huei then .. vrroooommmm! Back to home bebeh!

Will update when I settled down at home .. if I ain't tired =P





And I'm trying my best,
to get back to the starting point,
where there's no pain and no memories of you.

i turn to you.

I'm bored at home, but gonna go out cari my Fung soon =)

Anyways .. I found a website regarding bout the meaning of names .. Click here if you're interested =D


Name: Nikki

Origin: Greek
Meaning: Victory of the people


I was reading my Seventeen mag just now, after 2 weeks of buying it ==" Then there are some pages bout besties. Then this two girls are music lovers, and one of them said that 'I Turn To You' is a song for her and her bestie .. something like that?

And I'm gonna dedicate this song to all of my besties and close friends, boys and girls, new and old =)


I wanna tell you guys that I'm happy to know you all, and God must have love me a lot, 'coz I get to know great peeps like y'all =) Sometimes we have misunderstandings, but got through it hand-in-hand. You guys never stop giving me love and a hand of help when I need it, and also some silly and stupid arguments that made us laugh in the end. Lastly, never stop loving me for who I am and never give up on me =D


And I must say that, 'friends > lovers'

Read it in Mathematical way just in case you're too dumb (A)

I LOVE YOU ALL!! <3

I Turn To You - Christina Aguilera

When I'm lost in the rain,
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way.
And when I'm scared,
And losing ground,
When my world is going crazy,
You can turn it all around.
And when I'm down you're there
- pushing me to the top.
You're always there,
giving me all you've got.
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
When I lose the will to win,
I just reach for you and
I can reach the sky again.
I can do anything
'Cause your love is so amazing,
'Cause your love inspires me.
And when I need a friend,
You're always on my side
Giving me faith
taking me through the night
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
For the arms to be my shelter
through all the rain,
For truth that will never change,
For someone to lean on,
For a heart I can rely on through anything,
For that one who I can run to...
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
I turn to you...


Lyrics from here.





We may look idiotic,
we're just acting,
we're smart peeps who love each other =)

don't move.

If there's no cleaning campaign that's COMPULSORY for 1st year's hostelers .. I would be at home right now .. doing whatever fuck that I wanna do.

Guess what? I'm soooooooo OBSESSED with Twilight right now okay! Finished the book last night and sooooooo wanted to get the rest of it. I've downloaded lotsa pics and desktop images .. and even got 2 of their soundtracks. Well, only two are displayed at their official website. And oh, I even got their latest trailer in my iPod =D

My desktop! Also Twilight. Can't wait for the movie ~ *jumping in excitement*


Edward Cullen ~ My new love!


HAHA! Over sudah ni =="

I always love stories and movies about vampires and werewolves. Blood and Chocolate .. and all the story books written by Merry =)


I'm missing all your books now, Merry =(


Anyways, I've been listening to this song lately ..

Got it from Mel ^^




Butch Walker - Don't Move

Good morning sunlight
As I get used to you
It's all gonna be all right
I did all I can do
And as I'm waiting for those eyes
To say what's on your mind
I finally think I've found the words to say...

So baby don't move at all
Cause you're about to break my fall
Stay where you are, staring at the stars
Don't ever move at all

So many black and white
Are made to be so blue
We've all got our wars to fight
But I won't fight with you
If I could just get your attention
I'd never let it go
Until you've felt what I am gonna say....

So baby don't move at all
Cause you're about to break my fall
Stay where you are, staring at the stars
Don't ever move at all

[Bridge]
Oh, why's it gotta be that everybody's gotta see the sadness
Everybody's lonely, we don't have to be lonely
Baby, no baby oh, I can move you like an earthquake
Listen to me as my hands shake
Cause I want you, I need you
I can't live without you, baby

Baby don't move at all
Cause you're about to break my fall
Stay where you are, staring at the stars
Don't ever move at all


Lyrics from here.


Arghhh! Gotta sleep now ==" I have to be at the mosque at .. 7.30am ='(





"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb . . ."
- Edward Cullen, Twilight.

a beautiful mistake.

Heh! Sorry, but yes, I'm lazy to update 'coz I wanna have some time off from lappie =) Though I'm quite active in Facebook ..

SO .. I went to this SUPER DUPER WUBER UBER COOL REPTILE SHOW in FASS on Saturday. And lemme tell you a lil secret, I LIKE LIZARDS .. Not as in those SUPER BIG ONES .. or those HOUSE LIZARDS .. but you know, like iguanas, chameleons and little dragons? =D I remember I saw this SUPER LONG iguana and begging Mamee to get it for me BUT, yea, it didn't happen =(

But I still feel like getting one .. probably when I start to work =P

All the snakes are super cool to hold, some tried to 'molest' me by crawling into my baju kurung .. The bearded dragons are SUPER CUTEEEEE!! They even pose for the pictures =D

And stop saying 'bout me wearing baju kurung .. I'm too lazy to say the reason why I did ==" I THINK a lot are shocked to see me in one .. 'coz I'm usually the jeans-person. Argh!

And and and, I think I can relate myself as a reptile? 'Coz I always swallow my food before I actually chew it into pieces? Like snakes, no?? Lols.








P/S: The boa constrictor was smelly *pinch nose*


And guess what did I do with my Popo's plant when I was washing the car on Sunday?

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Make full use of it! =D Use it as a plastic bag holder .. I'm smart ^^


I've been listening to old songs .. gonna be special today, I POST 2 SONGS! XD





Turn Back Time - Aqua

Give me time to reason,
give me time to think it through
Passing through the season,
where I cheated you

I will always have a cross to wear,
but the bolt reminds me I was there

So give me strength,
to face this test tonight

If only I could turn back time
If only I had said what I still hide
If only I could turn back time
I would stay for the night. For the night...

Claim your right to science
Claim your right to see the truth
Though my pangs of conscience,
Will drill a hole in you

I seen it coming like a thief in the night,
I seen it coming from the flash of your light

So give me strength,
to face this test tonight

If only I could turn back time
If only I had said what I still hide
If only I could turn back time..
I would stay for the night

The bolt reminds me I was there
the bolt reminds me I was there

If only I could turn back time
If only I had said what I still hide
If only I could turn back time
I would stay for the night

[repeat chorus until fades out]






Let U Go - Ashley Parker Angel

Broken promises
But you don't really mind
It's not the first time
And you know it, don't you know
Tell me why it is you only smile inside
But when you break me into nothing
Don't you know

It's not like I haven't tried
Over and over again
Stupid fights
Wrong or right
Goodbye...

[Chorus:]
I Remember when you came with me that night
We said forever, that you would never let me go
But here I am again
With nothing left inside
No I don't wanna but I gotta let you go

You're the one mistake
I really didn't mind
So beautiful, unmerciful
It took me down
Too little and too late
So now I know your kind
You fake it easy, just to please me
Don't you know

It's not like we haven't tried
Over and over again
Sleepless nights wrong or right
Goodbye...

[Chorus:]
(slows down)

I gotta let u go...
It's you...
Theres nothing I can do

I remember when you came with me that night
You said forever [3x]

Here I am again
With nothing left inside
No I don't wanna but I gotta
Let U Go

[Chorus:]


Like usually, lyrics from here.





Well, forever is just a word.

finally, some funs =)

Okay, before I start to type type type ... I gotta wish my bestie and classmate a very happy birthday to them =D

Both on the same day, and I know it's yesterday. Too tired to blog le baaa ~

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY FUNG!!

My classmate, Yon, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO YOU TOO!! Don't have your picture .. sorry ya? =)

Done on greetings! =D

Actually, I'm suppose to be sleeping but my mind is soooooooo restless and I couldn't make myself to be calmmmmmm. In the end, I'm here and at the same time, I'm suppose to be in my French class .. but when I woke up in the morning, I feel blaaaa ~ sick =="

By the way ..


I FINALLY WENT TO MIRI LAST SATURDAY NIGHT!! =D


I know it's no biggie but IT IS a biggie to me .. I mean, I didn't club in Miri for monthssss!! HuiXin asked me last minute so I tried my best to be as fast as I could and of course I made it =P Coincidently, I met my love and XueLi at Balcony and also, ShanShan, Lucas and Richard. It's been agessss since I've seen them. Too bad I didn't get one pic with Richard and Shan =(

BUT, I'm still happy happy with my weekend =D

And oh, an old man commited suicide at Imperial Mall? I was inside a shop buying contact lens ==" then yea, heard a loud 'BANG'. I thought some metal stuffs dropped .. I wonder how is he now ..

Okay, shoo shoo that thought. Some pictures to see =D










On Monday night .. (MAMEE IS SO GOING TO KILL ME) Me and my peeps went to Riverview to overnight to celebrate our lovely Fung's birthday =D We had so much fun and a yummy yummy home-made cake baked by Sing Fung .. and Xiao Zhen I think ~

Pictures again! Please be warned that the pictures are in random order .. =]














More will be uploaded at my facebook ;)

I'm pretty sure that I've gained some weight .. visible from my arms ==" ARGH!

Last night, we went to Chempaka to have dinner and I've watched some sort like a ritual at a house there too. I was like so OMG 'coz I couldn't believe that HE could do that. I SALUTE YOU BRO!! I was really suprise and I think it's pretty awesome/cool that HE could do it ..


JASPER BRO, YOU'RE THE MAN!!


Some pics were taken after the dinner but I didn't get it from Annt .. so yea, waiting for it.

Another song I heard from my mp3 CD .. a forgotten favourite song =)




Call Me When You're Sober - Evanescence

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

Should I let you fall?
Lose it all?
So maybe you can remember yourself.
Can't keep believing,
We're only deceiving ourselves .
And I'm sick of the lie,
And you're too late.

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

Couldn't take the blame.
Sick with shame.
Must be exhausting to lose your own game.
Selfishly hated,
No wonder you're jaded.
You can't play the victim this time,
And you're too late.

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

You never call me when you're sober.
You only want it cause it's over,
It's over.

How could I have burned paradise?
How could I - you were never mine.

So don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
Don't lie to me,
Just get your things.
I've made up your mind.



I guess I gotta run now .. want to do my laundry then get some sleep. I guess I would be tired enough to get some rest =)





What would happen ..
If we did not do, what we did?

late! but still ..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BENG!!


=D



Hoho ~ you got a girl on your big day this year eyy?


HOPE YOU WERE DRUNKK!


;)

=)

Happy Birthday Xin ~ !




Hope you'll have a blast today =D

before i'm too late ..

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY SAN!!


=D



San, you know I miss you mucho mucho ..


MWAKS HUGS LAUKUNG!!

never ever.

Sorry for not updating (again and again .. ) lately 'coz I don't have the mood to do so. A lot of downs during the hols and I did nothing and I do mean NOTHING that's academic during hols. Well, I'm still down at times but yea, I'll be alright soon .. hopefully.

*clap clap*

Stop the emo-ness and let me story 'the happening' that happened just now in hostel =="

Well, we got back from Batu Bersurat after printing MA1101 notes.

Mel came to my room and Siaw Huei went back to hers .. Then she came back to my room telling us that there's a lizard in her room. So we went over to help her of course!

Mana tahu, me and Siaw Huei tau scream here and there saja ==" And Mel was the ONLY ONE doing the work. Lols! Lizard went out from Siaw Huei's room then went under my other hostel mate's door, who lives opposite of me.


CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW FREAK OUT AM I??


Well, 'coz it might come into MY ROOM during night time =S

ANYWAYS, then once again, Mel went to that hostel mate to eliminate the lizard. And once again, we all know how to scream saja ==" Or climb to desk. LOLS.

Another girl heard our screams and came out to check .. and helped Mel to throw the lizard out.


YES, MEL GOT THE LIZARD!!


Ain't she a hero? Or heroin? xD

"Don't scream ba. If it's a crocodile then you scream."
- Mel

I LAUGHED MY HEAD OFF WHEN SHE SAID THAT!!


Oh yea, 33 burned a MP3 CD for me, got 148 songs I think. Mostly old songs .. And there's this one song, I used to listen to it non-stop, still is my fave but I've forgotten about it. Not anymore, 'coz baru download. Hehe.

I think .. quite ngam me sia =)





All Saints - Never Ever

A few questions that I need to know
how you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what I've done wrong
and how long it's been going on
Was it that I never paid enough attention?
Or did I not give enough affection?
Not only will your answers keep me sane
but I'll know never to make the same mistake again
You can tell me to my face or even on the phone
You can write it in a letter, either way, I have to know
Did I never treat you right?
Did I always start the fight?
Either way, I'm going out of my mind
all the answers to my questions
I have to find

My head's spinning
Boy, I'm in a daze
I feel isolated
Don't wanna communicate

I'll take a shower, I will scour
I will rub
To find peace of mind
The happy mind I once owned, yeah

Flexing vocabulary runs right through me
The alphabet runs right from A to Zed
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find

I'm not crazy
I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong, no
I'm just waiting
'Cause I heard that this feeling
won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When you gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad

Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've Never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right

I'll keep searching
Deep within my soul
For all the answers
Don't wanna hurt no more

I need peace, got to feel at ease
Need to be.
Free from pain - going insane
My heart aches, yeah

Sometimes vocabulary runs through my head
The alphabet runs right from A to Zed
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find

I'm not crazy,
I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong
I'm just waiting
'Cause I heard that this feeling won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When ya gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad

Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've Never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right (x4)

You can tell me to my face,
You can tell me on the phone,
Uh, You can write it in a letter, babe
'Cause I really need to know

You can write it in a letter, babe
You can write it in a letter, babe

Lyrics from here.


Emo-ness =="

Oh well, I'll end here ..





Is it really like the song ..
That I give not enough attention & affection?